Sounds like your life would be better if you just went back
err--didnt you read this--?
Why make a big issue out of it?It will only create problems for your relatives and friends
Just walk away..never look back..dont go near a kh again..forget the cult and move on with your life.
Even visiting sites like this can do more harm than good if youre still dithering.
if i could turn the clock back--yes--i would have done it differently. no resigning--no grand gesture to get me d'fd...just a slow fade --to a point where most people wouldnt even remember me. just maybe i might have been able to maintain contact with my kids.
strange as it may seem--i still miss my kids. they havent died--in fact they have familes. i have 7 grand children i have never met. the eldest is married herself now--so ive heard.
so dont tell me my life would be better if i just went back. ive earned my spurs.